Archive for December, 2007
The purpose of relinquishing resentments is to increase your positive energy…Away from the person, air your resentments.
Looking for validation, I aired my resentments on the forums. After a time, I was able to see past the resentment. The person I let have power over me is actually pathetic. How does she command so much presence?
She texted me on my cell several times. I answered. She sent email; I answered. I knew something was building. The phone rang; I didn’t answer. Much later I checked messages and she had asked me to come to the phone.
We were planning a get together with our mother. I guessed that my sister wanted me to invite her to spend the night at my house. But I was protecting my energy. She’s an energy vampire. The last two times she stayed with me, she practically required hospitalization, but when I suggested a trip to emergency, she freaked.
But I digress. I guess.
But then, in a quiet moment, really reach to find compassion for the person’s shortcomings, not the deed itself.
I was getting there. But then I decided to blog. Then I couldn’t connect to the Internet. After much frustration, I could. Then the cats came in and started clawing at my chair. I kept shooing them away. Finally, I shut them out of the library.
So I’m trying to find all this compassion, but all I’m feeling is all this frustration and new resentment at computers and connections and cats!
December 22nd, 2007
I guess there’s no law that says I can’t post twice in one day. I just took a (Tickle) test to see which side of my brain I use more.
That means you are able to draw on the strengths of both the right and left hemispheres of your brain, depending upon a given situation.
When you need to explain a complicated process to someone, or plan a detailed vacation, the left hemisphere of your brain, which is responsible for your ability to solve problems logically, might kick in. But if you were critiquing an art opening or coming up with an original way to file papers, the right side of your brain, which is responsible for noticing subtle details in things, might take over.
While many people have clearly dominant left- or right-brained tendencies, you are able to draw on skills from both hemispheres of your brain. This rare combination makes you a very creative and flexible thinker.
The down side to being balanced-brained is that you may sometimes feel paralyzed by indecision when the two hemispheres of your brain are competing to solve a problem in their own unique ways.
Too true!
December 20th, 2007
I found another positive energy resource: Christiane Northrup, m.d.
We have the power to change our lives—to attract more abundance, to nurture loving relationships, to strengthen our bodies, and to deepen our connection with the Divine.
Once I sought to meet all my spiritual needs by going to church. I was attracted to charismatic preaching. But wandering in the wilderness wasn’t conducive to living in our society, especially with a child. I still believe, but I no longer go to church.
Then I met with a psychologist. I found myself and started to become the kind of person I’d always wanted to be. David Kiersey PhD had a lot to do with it.
I’ve never before felt comfortable in society. I’ve lived on the fringes…until now. Being a part of this community is like bonding with other spirits.
December 19th, 2007
One theory of why practicing positive energy sends energy plummeting: In _The Mom Factor_ by Henry Cloud and John Townsend If you had a Phantom Mom, you have probably developed ways to hide from your needs. “Devaluation” means to minimize the need; “avoidance” means to simply shut down emotionally.
I went to a lot of trouble to adjust to a life where my needs for intimacy probably weren’t going to be met. It involved a lot of shutting down and medicating. But, because it’s my nature, curiosity led me to experiment with increasing my energy. However, anything that opens me up causes me great pain. Finally, it’s easier not to need than to be needy.
Choosing not to live in despair, I’ve lowered my expectations. In another culture, this could be considered very Zen. Something Oprah said, “Do you want to be right, or do you want peace?”
These are things I’ll be examining in my Exploration of positive energy: Do I want it?
December 17th, 2007
The whole hi ho hi ho mood is gone. I’ll analyze it later; I just want to document that I’m practicing energy saving and having an unexpected reaction: less energy to the point that I feel like I’m getting sick.
December 15th, 2007
Breathe. Center. Focus. Kitties don’t anticipate going on the internet. Wave the stick with the bell and the purple and blue striped fuzzy rope. Bud pounces. Teak pounces. See Bud and Teak pounce. One chapter and two exercises bring me to the lesson of the two kitties.
Here’s Bud’s learning curve.
December 13th, 2007
With Judith Orloff, MD as my muse, I’m starting a journey. The first stop is Positive Energy: 10 Extraordinary Prescriptions for Transforming Fatigue, Stress, and Fear into Vibrance, Strength, and Love
Learning and sharing what I’ve learned is one of my life goals.
December 12th, 2007
Welcome to Psych Central Blogs. This is your first post. Edit or delete it, then start blogging!
December 9th, 2007